I am aware that the next step for me is to choose to accept my life as it is. I have been having an internal conversation that goes something like this.
Me: I don’t like the way you’ve set things up.
God: you are unhappy with suffering and pain, aren’t you?
Me: you’re damn right. I wanted a life where I would be supported and nurtured and helped to grow in a way that didn’t hurt so much.